I seriously think we have a problem. Okay, I think I may be overreacting to my hormones once again, it's been this way for this few days, weird mood swings so I don't think it has anything to do with Mr. J since I like the letter J. But not the point. I started out loving my job, then I started loving working with Mr J on my job. Now I just LOVE poking fun at this person whenever I can. It's just THAT fun. But of course, Mr J is very serious sometimes, serious trying to strike lottery, serious playing travian and seriously scolding weird people. Serious teaching people and consoling others, and serious with his work and I've learnt lots from him. It's queer but maybe it's because he was the one who happened to fill my sadness and disappointment at failing to attain the morning shift next month and I guess move me slightly with his decisions. I feel like his pampered student and it's really fun coz we like to argue. Mr J is typically lazy and has lots of vices, but he has a kind heart. What the hell am I saying? I'm just describing Mr J now until he seems like a fictional character. Maybe he is, someone who lives in my heart and not real, I'm making him up. LOL. But I know he is not ideal, yet I still do enjoy working with him? Or maybe it's coz I enjoy working with him too much? Or that I fall into the office romance category too easily? Well, I won't deny I'm that sorta girl though I like to keep work and love separate. Oh right, he does not like fierce girls like me. HAHAHA, he mentioned it once, but coz he's so lazy, sometimes he asks me to do things for me and I'd like fight back saying, no, do it yourself, and it's fun coz some people find our bickering very funny and sometimes I find it funny too, and sometimes I'd do it for him anyway coz he is after all my teacher and I have learnt lots from him. I rmb describing him as this once, that actually I learnt a lot from him but I am unable to thank him properly because he can be so childish and difficult a person to properly express thanks to. But anyhows that is not an excuse. I appreciate a lot of little things done for me especially when I am feeling down but I must remember that I get easily moved when I'm feeling down and since I am unable to pin my emotions onto other people while I am here in Taipei and more alone than in SG, I suppose I more easily pin my emotions on Mr J. SO, we should stop all these nonsense and regain rationality - I really do like his humour and one day I hope to find someone who has his gift of the gab and who is more suitable for me. The chemistry can get pretty strong, but it really is for the fun of it only. :) No serious business okay? RMB and get that into your head. :)

Now, get his silly face outta your head. Especially when he does that silly boyish smile. GOD, enough please. I'm going into denial now. :)

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I know it is 4 AM in the morning and I was supposed to sleep earlier, but I "feel" like getting this all out of system so that I can focus on sleeping/working/doing actual work. So, what now? Let me continue to describe Mr J.

I rmb first meeting him was on my third day of work I think. My room key card demagnetised so I had to get him to make a new one for me and he also taught me to use the photocopier machine. He told me the code was 01011 and to rmb it. Let's continue, at that point I was thinking oh my, really pretty good looking. But I really did not think too much then, I mean kinda pointless, not exactly SUPER HOT that caught my heart you know? Then, I had a few shifts with him, but I never talked to him at all. It was only much much later when I finally caught his "tempo" and when he really took the time to teach me stuff that I got to understand the way he worked and how serious he can be. He has a nice heart too coz he likes children, except of course there are these children he scolds coz he finds them too irritating and naughty. I rmb seeing him smiling and trying to play with a kid silly-ly once and I found that really how would you put it, it exuded his boyish charm? I tried not to look then, but I like children too. I normally resist doing his dirty work and he is the only higher up whom I can say, huh, don't want larh, in the sa jiao way. Or the I don't want, do it yourself, in the fierce resistance way. LOL. It's hilarious but sometimes I still end up doing it coz he after all taught me lots and I should help him out, as he has more responsibilities to carry. I used to think he was lazy and like to eat, typical greedy and lazy person, but I find that when he needs to do something, he still does it and has high efficiency. A horoscope very suitable for me as well, he makes me feel very very tempted to just you know. but I can't. because there is such an age gap, it's impossible. he looks much younger than he really is but it is hilarious to tease him and call him old man. I tease him lots and that is why I'm sorry if I will hurt him sometimes by teasing overboard, but to me he is like a big child? Sometimes. The guys I work with during my shift can sometimes be like big boys. But today I felt a bit more protected and more like they grew up and acted their age. hahas. :P it feels nice to be a little woman sometimes, but I did not fully turn into a little woman either, because I was still fiercely cursing someone else. But anyways, anyways, idk, I just feel like at first Mr J smoked and it turned me off, I know I will NEVER ever like him or anything, but now I ask him about everything related to work, coz I feel like he is clearer and idk, starting to feel slightly overdependent on him, which is horrid coz I can't possible be calling for Mr J for every single thing I have doubts on right? Oh realisation is such a crappy feeling sometimes. And sometimes, when the moment is over, it's over, there's no returning to it. So, let's not return there. Everything is my one-sided love affair. :) yay. I'm happy like that. :) And it's not really love coz I have my own restrains and doubts about everything, so it's very very controlled at the moment. the key words are at the moment. Well, I can't do anything about that anyways, it's not my choice to make.

One day I still hope I will find someone in SG like you, nearer my age, likes me and does not smoke nor do drugs. Witty, has the boyish charm I so melt over and makes me feel I can lean on him if anything goes wrong. I really wish for the day when the chemistry you and I share, I find it in someone else as well. :) Maybe only I think we have that chemistry, boy how much more lop-sided can this get?? Oh wells, I really do pray hard that it is this way, I prefer the imbalance so I will not habour anything at all.

I will try to smile...but I can't help laughing at him. :P someone kill me.please.

I seriously think we have a problem. Okay, I think I may be overreacting to my hormones once again, it's been this way for this few days, weird mood swings so I don't think it has anything to do with Mr. J since I like the letter J. But not the point. I started out loving my job, then I started loving working with Mr J on my job. Now I just LOVE poking fun at this person whenever I can. It's just THAT fun. But of course, Mr J is very serious sometimes, serious trying to strike lottery, serious playing travian and seriously scolding weird people. Serious teaching people and consoling others, and serious with his work and I've learnt lots from him. It's queer but maybe it's because he was the one who happened to fill my sadness and disappointment at failing to attain the morning shift next month and I guess move me slightly with his decisions. I feel like his pampered student and it's really fun coz we like to argue. Mr J is typically lazy and has lots of vices, but he has a kind heart. What the hell am I saying? I'm just describing Mr J now until he seems like a fictional character. Maybe he is, someone who lives in my heart and not real, I'm making him up. LOL. But I know he is not ideal, yet I still do enjoy working with him? Or maybe it's coz I enjoy working with him too much? Or that I fall into the office romance category too easily? Well, I won't deny I'm that sorta girl though I like to keep work and love separate. Oh right, he does not like fierce girls like me. HAHAHA, he mentioned it once, but coz he's so lazy, sometimes he asks me to do things for me and I'd like fight back saying, no, do it yourself, and it's fun coz some people find our bickering very funny and sometimes I find it funny too, and sometimes I'd do it for him anyway coz he is after all my teacher and I have learnt lots from him. I rmb describing him as this once, that actually I learnt a lot from him but I am unable to thank him properly because he can be so childish and difficult a person to properly express thanks to. But anyhows that is not an excuse. I appreciate a lot of little things done for me especially when I am feeling down but I must remember that I get easily moved when I'm feeling down and since I am unable to pin my emotions onto other people while I am here in Taipei and more alone than in SG, I suppose I more easily pin my emotions on Mr J. SO, we should stop all these nonsense and regain rationality - I really do like his humour and one day I hope to find someone who has his gift of the gab and who is more suitable for me. The chemistry can get pretty strong, but it really is for the fun of it only. :) No serious business okay? RMB and get that into your head. :)

Now, get his silly face outta your head. Especially when he does that silly boyish smile. GOD, enough please. I'm going into denial now. :)

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I know it is 4 AM in the morning and I was supposed to sleep earlier, but I "feel" like getting this all out of system so that I can focus on sleeping/working/doing actual work. So, what now? Let me continue to describe Mr J.

I rmb first meeting him was on my third day of work I think. My room key card demagnetised so I had to get him to make a new one for me and he also taught me to use the photocopier machine. He told me the code was 01011 and to rmb it. Let's continue, at that point I was thinking oh my, really pretty good looking. But I really did not think too much then, I mean kinda pointless, not exactly SUPER HOT that caught my heart you know? Then, I had a few shifts with him, but I never talked to him at all. It was only much much later when I finally caught his "tempo" and when he really took the time to teach me stuff that I got to understand the way he worked and how serious he can be. He has a nice heart too coz he likes children, except of course there are these children he scolds coz he finds them too irritating and naughty. I rmb seeing him smiling and trying to play with a kid silly-ly once and I found that really how would you put it, it exuded his boyish charm? I tried not to look then, but I like children too. I normally resist doing his dirty work and he is the only higher up whom I can say, huh, don't want larh, in the sa jiao way. Or the I don't want, do it yourself, in the fierce resistance way. LOL. It's hilarious but sometimes I still end up doing it coz he after all taught me lots and I should help him out, as he has more responsibilities to carry. I used to think he was lazy and like to eat, typical greedy and lazy person, but I find that when he needs to do something, he still does it and has high efficiency. A horoscope very suitable for me as well, he makes me feel very very tempted to just you know. but I can't. because there is such an age gap, it's impossible. he looks much younger than he really is but it is hilarious to tease him and call him old man. I tease him lots and that is why I'm sorry if I will hurt him sometimes by teasing overboard, but to me he is like a big child? Sometimes. The guys I work with during my shift can sometimes be like big boys. But today I felt a bit more protected and more like they grew up and acted their age. hahas. :P it feels nice to be a little woman sometimes, but I did not fully turn into a little woman either, because I was still fiercely cursing someone else. But anyways, anyways, idk, I just feel like at first Mr J smoked and it turned me off, I know I will NEVER ever like him or anything, but now I ask him about everything related to work, coz I feel like he is clearer and idk, starting to feel slightly overdependent on him, which is horrid coz I can't possible be calling for Mr J for every single thing I have doubts on right? Oh realisation is such a crappy feeling sometimes. And sometimes, when the moment is over, it's over, there's no returning to it. So, let's not return there. Everything is my one-sided love affair. :) yay. I'm happy like that. :) And it's not really love coz I have my own restrains and doubts about everything, so it's very very controlled at the moment. the key words are at the moment. Well, I can't do anything about that anyways, it's not my choice to make.

One day I still hope I will find someone in SG like you, nearer my age, likes me and does not smoke nor do drugs. Witty, has the boyish charm I so melt over and makes me feel I can lean on him if anything goes wrong. I really wish for the day when the chemistry you and I share, I find it in someone else as well. :) Maybe only I think we have that chemistry, boy how much more lop-sided can this get?? Oh wells, I really do pray hard that it is this way, I prefer the imbalance so I will not habour anything at all.

I will try to smile...but I can't help laughing at him. :P someone kill me.please.